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heartmelodies) wrote2020-05-11 12:05 pm
heartmelodies) wrote2020-05-11 12:05 pm
Two little lines
After 18 years of waiting, the day before Mother's Day 2020 I received the most beautiful gift. My husband and I had just begun our medically approved attempt to become pregnant and after a few good signs I decided to take a pregnancy test that Mother's day weekend. I remember wanting to wait until the Sunday morning so I could find out if I was to be a mother on Mother's day itself but I am a far too impatient person to wait. Early Saturday morning May 9th before the crack of dawn I sat down to take the test.
In the movies they always show this person pacing for minutes while they wait to see one or 2 little lines and even the box says it takes 3 minutes but in reality that test will pop up positive or negative in mere moments. Mine took 30 seconds to show the results.
Positive! Two little lines appeared and my head swam with the revelation. I was pregnant! After 18 years of waiting for my body to safely attempt I was pregnant! And on our first try!
"Oh dear," I mumbled,"His chest and head are going to swell so much from this. However will I handle hubby's testosterone filled joy at being successful on our first attempt!" First try impregnation is rare in older adults and in my imagination I jokingly saw a caveman version of my husband and as I tell him he beats his chest saying, "Me husband, have strong seman, make wife very pregnant first try. Me so so good! Ugh!"
My hubby had never had the joy of a surprise revelation with his previous partners' pregnancies and despite my excitement I wanted to hold out til we were alone to do it. That meant waiting til evening once my two step daughters were at their grandfather's house for a sleepover.
"Shit," I whispered,"I don't have a poker face and I'm insanely impatient with surprises. How the hell am I to keep this surprise a secret for 14 hours!?"
I honestly have no idea how I did it but I managed to keep quiet til evening. Because of the pandemic I had to get creative at home but I did manage a small bit of magic. I told my husband that I was doing a video submission for a local musical and needed him to record me on his phone while I used my phone to see the words. As he sat with his phone pointed at me I began to shakingly sing, "There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe..." At the last line I pulled out a note that said to check the drawer in the coffee table. Inside there was a zip lock bag containing the positive results .
I'll never forget that look of confusion and then shear joy he had.
"We're having a baby!"
"You little imp," he said,"You're recording me too, aren't you? Oh I'm so happy for us!"
When he came by and wrapped strong arms around me I felt the most indescribable feeling of bliss.
I was a mom. We were pregnant. Finally. I said through tears,
"So this is what it feels like to be parents."
In the movies they always show this person pacing for minutes while they wait to see one or 2 little lines and even the box says it takes 3 minutes but in reality that test will pop up positive or negative in mere moments. Mine took 30 seconds to show the results.
Positive! Two little lines appeared and my head swam with the revelation. I was pregnant! After 18 years of waiting for my body to safely attempt I was pregnant! And on our first try!
"Oh dear," I mumbled,"His chest and head are going to swell so much from this. However will I handle hubby's testosterone filled joy at being successful on our first attempt!" First try impregnation is rare in older adults and in my imagination I jokingly saw a caveman version of my husband and as I tell him he beats his chest saying, "Me husband, have strong seman, make wife very pregnant first try. Me so so good! Ugh!"
My hubby had never had the joy of a surprise revelation with his previous partners' pregnancies and despite my excitement I wanted to hold out til we were alone to do it. That meant waiting til evening once my two step daughters were at their grandfather's house for a sleepover.
"Shit," I whispered,"I don't have a poker face and I'm insanely impatient with surprises. How the hell am I to keep this surprise a secret for 14 hours!?"
I honestly have no idea how I did it but I managed to keep quiet til evening. Because of the pandemic I had to get creative at home but I did manage a small bit of magic. I told my husband that I was doing a video submission for a local musical and needed him to record me on his phone while I used my phone to see the words. As he sat with his phone pointed at me I began to shakingly sing, "There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe..." At the last line I pulled out a note that said to check the drawer in the coffee table. Inside there was a zip lock bag containing the positive results .
I'll never forget that look of confusion and then shear joy he had.
"We're having a baby!"
"You little imp," he said,"You're recording me too, aren't you? Oh I'm so happy for us!"
When he came by and wrapped strong arms around me I felt the most indescribable feeling of bliss.
I was a mom. We were pregnant. Finally. I said through tears,
"So this is what it feels like to be parents."